Poems, Lyrics, Proses

[Angels Of Sins]

Title: A Kissed Misery
Written/Copyrighted by: Michel “Raven/Erique” Dijkhuizen - 31 January/08 February 2010
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I don’t know why...
It started with a kiss...

You buried me,
Under a mountain of lies
And how can it be?
That everything dies
Even the love
That’s gone
And you’ve drove
Now there’s no one

I don’t know why, it started with a kiss
And then something would make it a bliss
The tears, I thought I wouldn’t miss
But I just know how wrong this is

And in misery
You’ve withered me
Another false judgement
That comes from,
Your devil’s statement

I don’t know why, it started with a kiss
And then something would make it a bliss
The tears, I thought I wouldn’t miss
But I just know how wrong this is

Wither me
In misery

I don’t know why, it started with a kiss
And then something would make it a bliss
The tears, I thought I wouldn’t miss
But I just know how wrong this is

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Angels of Sins - "Darkness of the Letter A"

“A serenade for misery”
And so we take a final step forward/Heading down the path into treachery/With false promises
keeping us ahead/When all else fails/A serenade is what we last heard before the silence
came/And nothing was left in tact between us/Then the misery and angered anguish that fed
our hope/We can’t take this lie no more/For it has made us become rotten/And let us remain
forgotten/And so we make the final dive into/The pool of our sorrows and sins liquefied/In a
vast sea of emptiness/While our false promises are keeping us afloat/And we then finally drown/
In our own endless ocean of tears/Out of tiredness we leave/On separate paths leading us far
astray/From life and dead, from white and black/For there is nothing left up ahead

“A fairy’s love”
Your skin’s as white as snow/And soft as a fairy’s touch I adore/With your hair an enchanted
red/Like the rose a fairy rest on, mi amore/Bewitch me with your voice like a serenade/Sang
by a fairies orchestra/Enhanced by your eyes only/Just like a clear crystal lake/Upon your beauty
is matched/Only by a fairy’s shining glow/Paled by your full blood red wine lips/I just love, like the
autumn’s dress of a/Fairy’s touch, so come breathe me your love/So that our fairy tale/Can finally
start, for I grant thee/My fairy’s love

“A summer’s breath, a winter’s end”
When a heart breaks/And fall into a slumber/It is too late/As shallowness plunders/Evaporating
the summer’s warmth within/Leaving only the winter’s coldness/To which a shallow heart falls
in/And withers away in complete solitary sadness/Every beginning/Has an ending

“Abandon all hope”
Would you stay here if I left you behind alone/Letting you rot away in your tears/And would
you be fading away till you’re gone/Killed off by your own fears/Under the dying sun/Let
all hopes fade away/This can’t be undone/For dead is coming again/Would you drink
poison for a quicker death/Or would you rather be waiting/Thinking back to everything that
you had/And hoping for something

“And the afterlife embrace us”
And you’re falling down/Into an icy tomb/And trying to be found/By some one who’s dumb/But
in this reverie/You’ve entered a Hell/From which sadly you can’t see/A way out of your holding
cell/An icy coldness running through your veins/And misery shattering the locks of your pain/
Unleashing all the sorrow of your soul/As an icy coldness running through your veins

“Amorehate”
Why/Why do you lie/Why/Why tear my heart out/Like it was nothing/So why do you adore/And
hurt me/Like it’s some sort of game/Break me apart/And we die/And then we live/And we are
falling/From Heaven into/So cold/Is your icy tomb/Intoxicate me harshly/Before/My blood
turns cold/In my veins/Due to your lies/Of love while your hate/Is all that is real/For all/The tears
your blood wept/All is fake/And embrace the helplessness/Of your rotting soul/That is waiting for/
The grim reaper to come by and/Ripping out and sending you to Hell/And love is a lie/And we die/
And then/We live and we/Are falling from/Heaven/Into

“Adore her on”
You are the tender rose/Bathing in moon light/Feeding upon fright/Dose by dose/And you are the
tears I weep/That also crawl skin deep/And just like a flood/You run through my blood/And
your love’s my heroine/And you are my poison/Cascading within me/And you’re the reason I go on/
While you condemn me towards death/You are my damned/And to adore her on/And you bring
life into/My shallow heart/Pulling me out of my tomb/It ain’t hard/And you’re the breath I breathe/
From my lips, intoxicate me/Cause it ain’t in vain/Once again/Her eyes

“Autumn”
And the storm rages on/As leafs are falling down/Falling like forgotten memories/Washed away by the
tears/And the sins of Mother Nature/Clenches us tightly in her grasp/Shaking off her pain that/We
are causing her over and over again/And the cold wind continues to blow/Stinging our skin like
needles of ice/Like razorblades cutting our skin/To pull out the truth from the layer of lies/And the
sins of Mother Nature/Screeches through our ears/Singing her heart wrenching songs/And sharing her
never-ending torment/And the rain knows no end/Nor forgiving us for never listening/To the cries
of help and salvation/Through out the cold, death autumn

“Again I bleed”
Again I bleed/From the wounds/Inflicted upon me/By your touch/And I ask/What I did/To deserve this/
Never ending suffering/From your anger/Is it the bitter poison/That runs through your veins/Or is it
jealousy that clouds your judgement/Is it the sad emptiness/That freezes your love/Or is it something
much deeper then it all/Again I bleed/In my grave/Far beyond life/Resting in death/And yet you/
Have found me/Hidden in the/Shadows of silence/Let me rest/Again I bleed/Misery and lies/And despair
from/My pale skin/All cause of/Your anger that/Continues to seep/Through my chest/Killing my heart

“An end of heartache”
You carried me through the dark shadows/Now you’re dragging me through a field of thorns/A testimony
to my impending doom/I can not sleep when lying next to you/And in loneliness I feel your presence
near/And you fill my head with lies/And you’ve masked your true self/Behind your eyes/I didn’t see you/
But now this poison/ Has come to an end/I’ve given you all of the love I had/But that wasn’t enough
you treated me like a toy/Now you are playing that you’re the victim/I find no tears after all the things
you’ve said/Only anger that keeps me going on/And now you are playing the victim/Claiming your lies are
the truths/But I know much better cause/Your heart’s of stone and you are nothing/It’s a shame I won’t
be your victim/Leave me alone and take this/Heartache away with you

“Angel”
She’s crying at night in a pitch black forest/Her tears rolling over her cheeks in pain/Like razorblades
cutting roughly through her skin/She’s wishing that the torment would end/He hears a crying while walking
on a path/And sees in the distance a faint white light/Coming closer, he sees a woman covering herself/
With blood drenched leafs lying around her/Are you an Angel send from Heaven above/And if you are
why are you crying/Are you in a great deal of pain/Then please let me help you get back home/She
looks up upon hearing someone approaching/Clenching the blanket tighter around her to hide her wounds/
He sees while kneeling down before her/Extending his hand and smiling gently/Are you an Angel/Crying out
of sorrow and misery/Drowning in a lake of liquefied sins/Take my hand/And I will try/To guide you back home

~“A kissed misery”~
You buried me/Under a mountain of lies/And how can it be/That everything dies/Even the love/That’s gone/
And you’ve drove/Now there’s no one/I don’t know why it started with a kiss/And then something would
make it a bliss/The tears I thought I wouldn’t miss/But I just know how wrong this is/And in misery/You’ve
withered me/Another false judgement/That comes from/Your devil’s statement/Wither me/In misery

Song lyrics written by Michel Peter Dijkhuizen aka Erique/Angels Of Sins (c) 2009/2010

[Fujimiya]

The Deal

Written by Gan Meng Yeow

I recently made a deal
with God
A deal I wouldn't tell you
what it is about

I just pray you would never forget
all that you have done
I wouldn't mind help refresh it
if you forgot though

I just pray you would never know
how I feel
I wouldn't want you to know
what I am thinking

And so I made a deal
with God
A deal you would never know
what is is about

I can't care whether I fall
to the depths of hell
I don't really mind
Cus' I know for sure
I will see you there

I can't care how long
I will be stuck down under
I don't really mind
Cus' I know for sure
You'll be there for eternity

I can't care whether I fall
to the depths of hell
I don't really mind
Cus' I know for sure
You can never escape me

And thats the deal I made
with God

[Fujimiya]

Song for Yesterday
(Written for Nation Prosperity Plan Episode 1)
'Performed by' Jessica
Written by Gan Meng Yeow
Additional editing by Jessica

La la la la la~
How many birthdays
Do one get to celebrate in a lifetime
So unpredictable is life
You won't know what will happen
If theres a tomorrow

Life has never been a bed of roses
Neither will it be what you desired
Knowing yet refusing to let my head down
People called me stubborn and stupid
But I just want to live a life happy and enriched

And so I sang my lungs out
I don't want no regrets
I won't know when my turn will come
To become dust and get scattered
By the wind

To live a life of love and loved
Pursue my ambitions while I still can
So yesterday won't be something that I look back
and regret on la la la~
A song for yesterday~

[Fujimiya]

Song to Tomorrow
(Written for Nation Prosperity Plan Episode 1)
'Performed by' Jessica
Written by Gan Meng Yeow

How many thousands of times
I have called you today
How many thousands of times
I have called you yesterday
All these years you've presented yourself
like a priceless gift to me

Every night I go to sleep
Wondering if you'll visit me
And it has always been a pleasant morning
That I wake up to
You are like a priceless gift given to me
For every hard work I did yesterday

I hate to say this
I hate to sing it out to you
But I have to bring it to you
That we can no longer meet again
That today will be the final day
Before my memories get blown away
By the wind

Thank you for all the pleasant yesterdays
That you turned into
Goodbye oh tomorrow

[Angels Of Sins]

Title: A Summer’s Breath
Written/Copyrighted by: Michel “Raven/Erique” Dijkhuizen - 13 March 2010
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Every beginning
Every beginning

When
A heart breaks
It is
Too late

‘Evaporating
The summer’s warmth within
To which
A shallow heart
Falls in

Evaporating
The summer’s warmth within
To which
A shallow heart
Falls in’

When a heart breaks
It is too late
Evaporating
The summer’s warmth

Every beginning

[Angels Of Sins]

Title: Silence
Written/Copyrighted by: Michel “Raven/Erique” Dijkhuizen - 13 March 2010
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We’re falling in silence
Drowning in silence
Sad silence
Silence

‘Our love fled in silence
Tears shed during silence
Heart breaking silence
Dead silence
Silence’

Then there was silence
Nothing but silence
Sweet silence
Silence

The last seasonal silence
Solitude of silence
Killing silence
Silence

[Angels Of Sins]

Title: Till We Fall Apart
Written/Copyrighted by: Michel “Raven/Erique” Dijkhuizen - 18 April 2010
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...Please love me; please love me while I keep falling further from your heart
Please love me; please love me till I fall down into my own death...

And every step we took, the longing that we both look for
It feels so wrong, while it should feel right
And stare into each other’s eyes, we shook
Waiting till the right time...

Please hold me; please hold me while I listen to your heart beating slowly
Please hold me; please hold me till I fall asleep in your arms
Please love me; please love me while I keep falling further from your heart
Please love me; please love me till I fall down into my own death

And every word we spoke, the anguish and anger that resides inside
Was more then enough, to open our shadowy path down to drown in
The sea of tranquility where we can not crawl out
Of this mist of sadness...

Shattering...
Everything,
We held dear

Shattering...
Everything,
We hold near

Please hold me...
Please love me...

[Angels Of Sins]

Title: Rest In Peace
Written/Copyrighted by: Michel “Raven/Erique” Dijkhuizen - 20 April 2010
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And I
Place a
Red rose
On your
Grave
But
I feel
That you don’t
Truly deserve
It

Sweet melody, sweet memory
No I won’t remember thee
So I’ll just say, rest in peace

Remembering
Here in the
Silence and
Solitude
You don’t
Belong here
Due to
How you’ve killed
Me

Another respect
For the dead

Sweet melody

Sweet memory

[Angels Of Sins]

Title: The Gist Of...
Written/Copyrighted by: Michel “Raven/Erique” Dijkhuizen - 22 April 2010
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Took this hand
Just don’t understand
While nothing’s left
It’s just another theft

You’ve shed a single tear
And I, couldn’t come near
Another revelation, is wasted here

Don’t understand
Had to leave the land
Another black, morning sun
Can’t be undone

You’ve shed a single tear
And I, couldn’t come near
Another revelation, is wasted here

[Angels Of Sins]

Title: Shadows of a Leaving Girl
Written/Copyrighted by: Michel “Raven” Dijkhuizen - 04 May 2010
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Still don’t understand,
Why you’ve left me behind
Was it something I’ve said
Or was it something I’ve done
That caused you to leave

And another tear is shed
For I know you’ve passed away
And yet I still see
Your shadow leaving in tears

(And) another tear is shed
For I know you’ve passed away
And yet I still see
Your shadows leaving me

Still don’t understand
Why you’ve left me behind
A bitter emptiness in my heart
And tears of sadness in
Remembrance to you

[Angels Of Sins]

Title: Not Saying Goodbye
Written/Copyrighted by: Michel “Raven/Erique” Dijkhuizen - 06 May 2010
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(She asked me)
Would you miss me, when I leave you?
And would you come looking for me
If you truly love me
Or would you leave me out
In the cold to
Wither and die?

And I can clearly hear
How you burst into tears
Yet I can guarantee
That my cruel joke’s a stupid mistake

(Jokingly I said)
I could care less, if you left
I wouldn’t lay awake, if you stayed gone
And even if you died,
I wouldn’t mind
So no I wouldn’t miss you;
She stood up and walked away...

[Angels Of Sins]

Title: ...An Eclipse Bathing In Sadness
Written/Copyrighted by: Michel “Raven/Erique” Dijkhuizen - 07 May 2010
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You let me wailing in sadness
You bitch, keep reminding me of
My shallow heart, leave me be
Stop haunting me, I suffer enough

And this pain feels like being
Crucified over and over again, baby
This torment hidden in the dark
You keep me bathing
Not letting me drown

You let me falling in self doubt
You slut, stop this cruelty
Stop and leave this in the past
Can’t we just move on?

It’s over, it’s done
You’re gone...

[Angels Of Sins]

Title: Untitled Dreams Equal Forgotten Tears
Written/Copyrighted by: Michel “Raven/Erique” Dijkhuizen - 17 May 2010
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(And) I’m laying in our bed
With these tainted sheets pulled
Right over my head,
While being eaten alive by the guilt (rotten),
I’m left wondering if I am forgotten...

Weeping all alone in this room
It all just reeks of a forgotten doom
Where you’ve made me feel so gloom
I’m waiting for my heart to go boom

Left behind in a damped forest
Is this another cruel test?
I no longer have the will to digest
You’re gone and I can’t find any rest...

[Angels Of Sins]

Title: Crying Rain
Written/Copyrighted by: Michel “Raven/Erique” Dijkhuizen - 18/19 May 2010
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And the tears keep crawling
As all are falling
Down like rain
Of memories in vain
Cascading over your cheeks as they seep
Hitting your tainted blood skin deep
While you can not stop the tears you weep
Clouds of doom gather above our heads
Chaining us down upon our death beds
Locking up our memories, they shatter
Like the dying roses and orchids wither
Away as our love breaks, falls and dies
We can not use the momentum to say goodbye
Standing under the down pours to where sorrow reigns
Our tears of silence mixing with the rain
Clouds of doom gather above our heads
Chaining us down upon our death beds
Of a forest’s summer
Of a crying winter
And the tears keep crawling
As all are falling
Down like rain
Of memories in vain
Standing under the down pours to where sorrow reigns
Our tears of silence mixing with the rain
Clouds of doom gather above our heads
Chaining us down upon our death beds
As our love breaks, falls and dies
We can not use the momentum to say goodbye...

[Angels Of Sins]

Title: I Hate
Written/Copyrighted by: Michel P. Dijkhuizen - 03 June 2010
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I hate
I hate

All that walks
All that breaths

I hate
I hate

Everything that
Means nothing

I hate
I hate

Can we not
End this?

I hate
I hate

On gallows
Made from sorrows

I hate it all
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Title: The Skies
Written/Copyrighted by: Michel P. Dijkhuizen - 03 June 2010
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The skies are of a heavenly blue
It sickens me for it reminds me of you
And your eyes, like diamonds in dirt
Looking down at me being hurt

The sun shines down from the clear skies
Burning down on my skin and tries
To kill me while I wait for the clouds of doom
To wash away my sins with it’s rain of gloom

The skies are of a soft pink
It crawls through my veins; I think
Out loud to what went wrong
With us for so long (ago)

The sun shines down from the clear skies
Burning down on my skin and tries
To kill me while I wait for the clouds of doom
To wash away my sins with it’s rain of gloom

The skies are of a charcoaled black
Allowing me to welcome the sorrow back
And letting me finally forget
Everything from you I could not get...